Tuesday, November 29, 2005
wk2 of hols
went back to sch today. collected the artifacts needed for work. juz as i was having my lunch, my hp rang. guess whr i rushed off to...
off to meet bobby and the P6 girls - sheryl, elaine and lijuan.
it's been a long time since i last took neoprint. not even w him. :( along the way, met the P5 girls fr SS class. adeline, hoi hann and annabelle. off to take my 2nd rnd of neoprint.
didnt want to head hm. though the company kept me smiling for a while, at the end of the day, i cant avoid my true feelings. took the train to esplanade. it's been the place for me to cool off since its opening. i let the breeze blow off my thoughts. as i stare at the sky, my mind was a blank. then beautiful memories swam into my mind as i recalled the wonderful days spent tog. the faint raindrops brought me back to reality. i went indoors oni to find out tt the roof terrace was closed for the day for a private function. i walked into the lib. staring out at the sky, i stood still. even the roof terrace and the rain didnt allow me to think alone. the wonderful memories r meant to be locked in my heart. the beautiful words r meant to be echoed at the back of my head. the hug which i try to feel in my dreams. the fact tt i got to live w everyday. it'll nv be the ending tt i want, at least u told me tt for now. as i reflected through, there wasnt any regret. i juz simply want to turn back the clock and stop the time. to enjoy evey moment which we spent. at least i know we were happy then. now - i'm living each day as it comes.
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
9:08 am
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Monday, November 28, 2005
now it's the time to ...
LET GO
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
2:13 am
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Sunday, November 27, 2005
Day 8
heartbroken, disappointed, speechless...enough said...
i tried my best already...perhaps i should really GIVE it all UP...
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
8:38 pm
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Saturday, November 26, 2005
wk1 of hols
Xmas at Marina Square
sarah and me
hey we went to haf my first studio shoot in the morning. a wonderful first experience though the photographer said tt i should go browse thru more mag to know how to pose :( wonder how the photos will turn out to b. the 2 hrs went by juz lk tt. lunch was at cafe cartel. hopped dwn to citylink, suntec n marina. oni to know tt we were spotted by kel when he msg sarah. it's either age is catching up w me or tt i'm still missing him. the journey was silent. sarah is mising HIM too.
lunch was at crystal jade on fr with my sis n bro.
the thursday evening sky when i was hm fr PP. dunno whr to go aft sch so went to katong for my fav fish soup. sad...the fish soup was sold out. headed dwn to PP while waiting for mum to knock off fr work. while walking ard PP, i bought something lacy again. ha ;p
ice-cream to cheer myself up - hokey pokey and boysenberry dream
now...blogging at ah ma's place lor.
made myself clear to him already. now m waiting for his response.
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
6:32 pm
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Monday, November 21, 2005
the day started off with a DISC workshop. walking into the rm thinking tt it's another boring talk but i was wrg. the session began w some games. hunter, fire, earthquake, then it was the squeeze as many ppl as u can in hula hoop. i hadnt has tt much laughter.
the session was a useful one. i discovered abt my style and how i should work w different ppl. the lunch was great n the day ended off with packing my table.
off for a movie w sarah n the kids.
it was so much blogging abt the activities. i juz want to pen dwn some thoughts.
given the absence, my heart remains the same. wat abt yours? i thought we've tok and sort things out during the cny period. we know whr our r/s is heading . aft tt incident in mid may, everything was blurred. hadnt really had a heart to heart talk w u. i want to know wat u r thinking. juz lk the way we tok things out at ecp. i'm still waiting for u to open up to me again. i've initiated for us to meet but everytime u kept quiet abt it. y? i'm willing to wait but m afraid tt the passion will fade. or has it faded for u tt's y u nv response.
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
10:36 pm
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Day 7
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
10:35 pm
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Sunday, November 20, 2005
accomplishments!
Friday - last day of sch, 1st day of hols
it's prize giving day. my ss booth was finally ready aft 2 hrs of setup on thur. ha fast right! then i was busy w decorating the robotics rm tt i left at sch oni at 430pm. thx gal for waiting for me. off to expo for the loreal fair. dinner was at cafe cartel, headed hm to nap before heading dwn to dbl o. then i made some new friends.
Sat - P1 orientation.
aft the event, sarah n I headed dwn to orchard. shop, shop, shop. i bought a necklace fr forever 21 n a white skirt fr far east. i'm into white n green for now. as i feasted on the ice-cream, it brought back many fond memories. i love the raspberry sorbet, my all time fav. i was introduced to hokey pokey. the first bite was at east point. at tt time, i thought it tasted weird. the outlet at suntec didnt had tt flavour. so when i saw it at far east, i bought it. as i ate the cup of ice-cream, he was on my mind. i miss him so much. took the bus hm. nap on my way hm. continued to slp n knowing tt i'll wake up for dbl-o. sigh...couldnt convince mum to let me go. sigh...at this age, i still haf to seek mum's permission. her reason: went last night already.
today - family day
woke up at 230pm. ha...had my power slp. off to ikea. our first stop was the cafe. ate our fill. we were shopping for a com table. i bought the plastic containers, hoping to keep my stationery organised. yup gonna clear my table too. moving to the next rm...
now...
juz surfing lor...
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
9:11 pm
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Thursday, November 17, 2005
Day 6
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
11:52 pm
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Wednesday, November 16, 2005
Day 5
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
12:43 am
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Monday, November 14, 2005
Day 4
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
11:02 pm
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day1of seminar
dad fetched me to occ this morning. as a result, i was early. as i walked to the restroom, i saw my course mate, wei ling. ha...at least i saw a familiar face. then i discovered more. doris, farah, ming qiang, etc...listened to talk aft talk. every time aft a break, i felt lk dozing off. but i survived the day...
the bus journey back was swift. oni 1/2 hr fr yishun to tamp. wow! as i sat at the familiar place once more, i watched the train pass by, one aft another. i watched the ppl walk by. among the crowd, i hope to see a familiar face - him. dun ask me y i was sitting there. my mind guided my legs n i followed my heart.
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
10:34 pm
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Sunday, November 13, 2005
Day 3
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
9:32 pm
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2D1N@furama riverfront
the hotel rm at furama riverfront
a self shot of myself staring into the mirror
fr the 19th storey of the function rm
at the end of the 2 day retreat, i was exhausted. more work to be done. on my way hm, i was in my grouchy mood. staring out of the car window, i felt lk screaming. slept thru the evening. no night activities. surprised right?
spent my sunday w my family. went shopping for a hp pouch and hair clip cos i lost them both one evening. another 2 full day seminar on mon n tues. blah...
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
9:19 pm
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Wednesday, November 09, 2005
Day 2
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
11:43 am
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Tuesday, November 08, 2005
Day 1
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
11:36 pm
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yet another sleepless nite
playing w the new pc. i knew i couldnt fall aslp cos everytime i close my eyes, i'll think of him. hence i start to play ard with the shots i took on saturday. can u spot the differences?
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
12:11 am
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Monday, November 07, 2005
dwn dwn me
call me stubborn...call me stupid...i'm lovesick. i sat there n waited but no sign of him. knowing tt he'll not reply yet i still sms him.
how i'm feeling now? tired...disappointed...i juz wanted to get him to talk. something's bothering him, at least my 6th sense tells me so. juz want him to know tt there's someone - me who's willing to listen to him juz lk before.
guess i'll juz stop for now or he'll find me a pest. i've got to stop. gonna put tt full stop somewhr. it juz has to get started. can tt full-stop b backspace...it's a question mark still...will i ever know the ans...
at least i know i still care for him. juz tt i've got to watch him fr far now. aft trying for so many times n getting little or no reponse, i'm not tt thick-skinned. i'm reduced to the bones now.
dun keep a distance fr me
let me love you
i've nv ask u for anything
juz let us fall in love again
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
10:52 pm
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the long weekend
the new pc arrived on saturday but i was out shopping. invested in a wireless router too so tt 2 pcs n 2 lappy can access the Internet at the same time. yipee no more fighting to use the pcs. the new pc is so wonderful. i can now upload the fotos w/o the software. juz insert the memory stick into the cpu n it's done...haha...guess i'll let the fotos do the talking fr now onwards.
time for update aft being absent for some time. time to upload fotos too. woke up early thinking of doing work but ended up blogging first. the fotos will tell u tt i've been with great company of frenz all this while.
sat (5nov) - met xin n elaine.
me, xin n elaine
some additions to my already bursting wardrobe
my new tie ribbon ard ankle pair of shoes
thur (3nov) - met zhenshan
our dinner at ichiban
me n zhenshan
wed (2nov) - supper with sarah, roy n justin @kallang kfc
sarah n me (brought lola along too)
sat (29 oct) - with sarah @taka crystal jade
at the end of everything, i'm still the same. had a sleepless night. it's either i've slept too much or been thinking too much. the rainbow issue of course...sigh...life still goes on for me. thx for all the support, care n concern fr my wonderful frenz n dear family
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
6:39 am
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